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I knew a girl in high school named Deedee Murphy.  She was a year younger than me and was for the most part a jock.  Her mother was remarried to an alcoholic; I met her real dad at his house on Farmington Ave. briefly, the day we went to my Prom -believe it or not she drove.  We went out to a nice restaurant had some oysters which I noticed she was unfamiliar with, an entree, and I can't remember when, but we boozed it up hard with taquila.  The prom was a blur -and we ended up passed out in the car afterwards; we had fought.  Someone woke us up, perhaps security and she drove the fifteen or so miles to my house at dawn.  I was starting to improvise on the piano at that time, and with her on the couch passed-out I played some invention in E if I recall, for some time.  It was probably a mode based on the C major scale.  E phrygian.  My sister's friend Melissa was over, and her voice always caught my attention.  I used to walk around the block and stand outside her window or sit on the front porch and smoke a cigarette late at night; this was after high school.  I wanted to be with Melissa I recall as opposed to Deedee when I heard her that morning.  My mother, my sister, and Melissa disappeared for some reason early that morning, perhaps due to the »significance« of the event.  Little did they know I would have kicked Deedee out and fucked Melissa in a heart beat.  I really cared for that kid.  Now of course she's married, and to an Italian she met abroad.  I made an attempt to re-kindle something I think we both understood when she was finishing up college at Smith and I was back in my home town working for my dad; but, it wasn't a good time for me, as I was on paxil.  I had also gained weight and had basically shaved my head the day before we met.  I saw her in NYC later.  After our walk she was apologizing, I don't know why.  I said that it was ok, pulled her close, kissed her neck, withdrew, said goodbye and that was the last time I saw Melissa.  
 Deedee was not unattractive.  She was definately Irish, and her complexion is fair and freckled.  She was an appealing friend.  I still think of Melissa.
 
 
 
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