wake up in the morning, fall asleep. get out of bed go to the bathroom for breakfast- realise there is something wrong, go to the kitchen, fell dirty and want to be in the bathroom.
Grow up wanting to remain young; act young and feel out of place and in this naivity want to grow.
Want to die. want to live. i chose to live? i chose.? want to live but cannot chose. randomness, irrationality rule. i try to decided but it is my feelings without my knowing which take over. rationally i remain undecided.